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Well today is a new day, a new month, a new year! To my new year’s resolution. I started back on watching what I put in my mouth. I am doing weight watchers again, it seems to work really well as long as I just freakin stick with it! I don’t know how I do so well and then all of a sudden I wake up and I am off of it and have gained. I am wanting to bring my dog, Harley, back home to Tulsa with me, right now she is with my parents in Ponca City. I think her being here and needing to exercise will be my motivation because she has so much energy she will have to go on walks and runs hence SO WILL I!!! A goal of mine is to blog at least 3 times a week and forum as much as I can. I also have my lovely ALLY along my side, I don’t know what I would do without her!

I am so tired, and I know I am not the only one, I know that….I don’t have kids, when I leave work I should be able to leave work at work, I don’t have too much stress in my life. WHY AM I SO TIRED? I have hopes of posting and giving people comments every day but then I get home and all I want to do is be lazy and take a nap or go to bed early because I know that in the morning I am going to have a hard time dragging myself out of bed.

 Today I felt a little bummed out…like I was in some sort of I WANT IT NOW mood. I talked to my Ally and she put me back in the right direction. I felt so much better after hearing that from her…plus I saw her before an after pics and she looks so fantastic, it made me want to do some squats right then and there! If it weren’t for her, I think I would have already fallen back into the rut again. I know that with buddyslim and my Rockstar friends I can do this, and I will!

I have the most wonderful friend in the world…Miss ALLY!!!! She stayed with me a couple of nights and posted some amazing words of inspiration all over my fridge on HOT PINK POST-ITS! What a great thing to do, I think it is a wonderful idea for anyone….my new goal is to read thru them every morning and every night! You have to picture about 20 post-its! I love you Ally!!!

Does coughing so hard your stomach muscles get sore count as exercise? Day 4 on the good ol’ weight watchers program and I am feeling good, I just hope on Saturday when I weigh I will see some progress. I get really discouraged when I stay the same or even drop just half a pound…yes I know it is something and a lot of half pounds add up but I hate not seeing a more drastic result. My friend Ally was talking about filling a void or a hole in your life for food, I’m trying to find the reason for my trying to fill my void. I had a great childhood…noone ever made fun of me, at least not to my face or loud enough to where I could hear it. So it isn’t that….what could it be? Maybe the fact that everyone in my family is 139 pounds or less including my brother and dad who are both about 6ft tall. It sucks outweighing your dad! Maybe that is the hole I’m trying to feel.

I have been pretty sick the last couple of days, for some strange dysmorphic reason I have welcomed the sickness due to the fact that it has caused me to lose quite a bit of my appetite.

In The Devil Wears Prada, Andy comments on Emily’s skinniness to which Emily replies, “Thanks, I’m one stomach flu away from reaching my goal weight.” It sounds so horrible yet so good at the same time, I lost 10 pounds when I had my wisdom teeth out. I think I need to change my way of thinking! Ya think?

Okay guys I have to do this….I started WW  in January with the hopes of losing some poundage before summer came. I lost about 4 pounds and then gained about 8. A bit depressing. I have been through quite a bit the last year or so and now that most of my stress is over I have to get back on track. I went thru a breakup about 2 years ago and endured the “dump diet” and lost about 25 pounds. I gained it all back the last coupld of years and I recently saw that guy that broke my heart into a million little pieces and I realized that I don’t need to lose the weight to prove to him that I am hot…I need to lose the weight so I can see for myself that I am hot!!!!! Right? I am starting back on WW with my friend Ally and we are going to do fantastic. She is amazing and I know we both can do it but we both need to keep each other motivated. She found this website and I think it is the perfect tool to get and keep us going!